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When the music hits you shall feel no pain.

I need someone to go to the Perfect Circle show with. I need two more textbooks. I need to schedule a meeting with Autistic children and their teacher. I need to take the writing exam. I need to make an outline for my ten page single spaced Art and Photography paper. I need all of these things.

They are haunting me. And when I'm done worrying about them, I'll still have myself to worry about. Because wherever I go, there I am. There I'll be.

Perhaps this terrible disorder is good for something other than tormentive thought processes. The bookeeper left a note on my timecard thanking me for seperating and stacking up all the credit receipts, the debit receipts, the coupons, the recieved rainchecks, the written rainchecks, and the personal checks. "It is a big help :)"

My life can go to hell all around me, but hey my drawer at the drugstore is immaculate. As is the Valentines aisle. I've got all the pink bears facing duesouth and the frilly boxes of chocolates duenorth. The floating candles that declare their love. The candy hearts that say "fax me." If it's late enough at night, I'll sit down crosslegged on the floor to pretend to straighten the cardboard valentines. I'm really just staring sideways at the purple bears, inhaling dust, and trying not cry.

I only get to sell the purple bears to men on Valentines day. I have never received.

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for7676
Feb. 13th, 2004 01:14 am (UTC)
A little bit of OCD there? ;)

..you've never been given a purple bear? I can't even begin to think what that must be like. It just yells out to me reach out and give you a hug.

I personally dislike Valentine's, for what the day is, not what it stands for (and personal history), but I always try to do something, even a little something for the people close to me.
velouria
Feb. 13th, 2004 01:24 am (UTC)
a lot, yes.

well. if you buy a purple bear on valentines day, give it right back to the cashiere. that's the sweetest thing i can think of. unless the cashiere is a hairy guy. actually. maybe even then.
ruxpin_exe
Feb. 13th, 2004 05:55 am (UTC)
Re:
That would be a pretty slick thing to do if your girlfriend worked at a drug store.
Or you just wanted to pick up said cashier.

Sup.
velouria
Feb. 13th, 2004 03:05 pm (UTC)
try it and report your findings. i'm convinced it would work.
ruxpin_exe
Feb. 13th, 2004 05:19 pm (UTC)
Maybe on you, you slut.
velouria
Feb. 23rd, 2004 12:15 am (UTC)
yeah. I'd bang him right there on the conveyor belt.
ruxpin_exe
Feb. 23rd, 2004 05:42 am (UTC)
Thats hot.
ex_hypothezi980
Feb. 13th, 2004 10:06 am (UTC)
when cupid knocks at yo door
hey dude, what if

what if its a beefy cashiere guy

what then
velouria
Feb. 13th, 2004 03:06 pm (UTC)
dude
what if Ian reads my journal? what then
for7676
Feb. 13th, 2004 11:49 am (UTC)
Re:
There is only one person that I know (IRL) right now who would be getting a bear. She has the worst luck with men, and I think she'd really get a smile out of it.

But your right though, random acts of kindness are just about the best thing that anyone can receive.
mydollhouse
Feb. 13th, 2004 07:08 am (UTC)
Hum I would go with you to APC, shame we don't even live in the same continent Û_U
velouria
Feb. 13th, 2004 03:08 pm (UTC)
this is a reoccuring theme in my life.
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velouria
Feb. 14th, 2004 11:54 am (UTC)
thinking not now.
livenolies
Feb. 21st, 2004 12:24 pm (UTC)
Hello, I was just clicking through friend's LJ's and came across you. I added you, hope it's okay. Cheers.
velouria
Feb. 22nd, 2004 01:23 am (UTC)
I can't blame you.
livenolies
Feb. 22nd, 2004 09:30 am (UTC)
huh?
velouria
Feb. 23rd, 2004 12:12 am (UTC)
just...nothing.
(Anonymous)
Feb. 23rd, 2004 12:29 am (UTC)
Re:
call off the search. the sharpest knife in the drawer has been located
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